Actress | HEO

I hear that clock ticking when the nightmare is over.
I won’t be able to fall back asleep.
I can’t dream anymore.

I see the dark night.
Everything has no color.
If I have to lie to myself, I can’t breathe anymore.

*
The world is calm again, calm again, calm again.

So, finally the end.
It’s the time to drive to desolation.   
I’ll never look back.

No shade from the sun.
The air around me is like a haze of light.
Over the horizon, I’m heading for the sand hill. 
I’ll never remember when I cried.

No life around here.
It makes me feel I’m the only one.
No matter what I see I don’t care what is real.
It’s getting closer.
I’ll keep my way.

*
On the hill, the fire in the sun.
On bended knee, look at the red sky.
We gaze into each other’s eyes.
I feel my sin is burning out.

We are still strangers. 
The more I know, the more I feel,
The border between you and me.
Where is the end of your wild days?

We are crying all night.
What’s the story in your mind?
Can’t you believe?
We’re on the pyre we made.

*
Let us stay in the cold days.
I don’t believe we can fall asleep.
Tell me what would happen tomorrow.
If I lose myself.
If I lose myself.

Let us have only one chance to forget our strange days.
Tell me what would happen tomorrow.
If I lose myself.
if I lose myself.
  
We are still apart.
The more I know, the more I feel.
The crack between you and me.
When was the first day of our strange days?

Standing at a dead end.
We wouldn’t be aware of who we are.
Can’t you believe?
We’re on the pyre we made.

Pictures are washed away by waves.
The emptiness like falling tides. 
It’s time you let me change your mind.
Before the sunset, I’ll find the hole

*
What should I have done?
What should I hear now?
Staring at the celling of the cave on the shore.

It won’t be sad ’cause I’m not here.
It won’t be sad wherever I go.
It won’t be sad ’cause I’m not here.
It won’t be sad wherever I go.   

It’s nobody’s fault.
Just like a dream
I don’t wanna believe it.
So, close your eyes but don’t be scared.

I’ll miss your last smile that’ll take everything away.
So, mind your eyes.
We’re losing time.

I’ll follow you with all my heart.
I’m behind you in this lighttight world.

*
You’ll be in the dark.
Please sleep tight.
In spite of the dark.
Please sleep tight.

I don’t know what my real self is.
‘Cause I’m not the right one. 
‘Cause I’m not the right one.

While you’re real, my shadow is still there.
‘Cause I’m not the right one. 
‘Cause I’m not the right one.

I wanna get to you.
I wanna shout it out to you.
I wanna get to you.
I wanna sing it through my eyes.
Everything is love.
Everything I need.

Make me feel hatred of sorrow.
Make me afraid of despair.
I’m covered in dirt.
I’m covered in dirt.

*
You’ll get used to this.
That’s gonna happen today.
You’ll get used to this.
Nothing can stay the same.
How can I get out of the wheel in my cursed cage.
With this obsession, I’ll be on the edge of my fate. 
 
This conversation is over.

Running through the night.
Running to the dark.
I steal this night from you.
The night reverts to me.
That’s the way it’s meant to be.
  
Coming through the night.
Seeing the moon dance.
It never looks the same.
But I am here to run.
That’s the way it’s meant to be.

*
Watch the lights fade.
We will all fade away.
Run with the sorrow.
Take me down to the night.

Deeper and deeper.
I’m confused.
Deeper and deeper.
Rage gets sweeter.
I don’t know why I can’t open it up.
I’m just blind.
I’m just deaf.

I’m scared of people talking. 
I’m scared of people watching.
I’m scared of people turning.
It’s a disconnection.
All is blacked out.

*
How to hear from you. 

It feels like everybody hates me.
It feels like everybody loves me.
But I just feel like I’m not real to you. 
I forgot how can I say real words.  

It feels like everybody watches me.
It feels like everybody avoids me.
But I am on the edge to become the only one.
I’m scared I’ve forgotten how to smile.

*
How can I become a star for you?
How can I reveal my soul for you?

**
Let the stars shine on me.
Let me be somebody who is not like me.