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Ever since I remember, I’ve always been the kid that is always nice and respectful to everyone and try’s to treat people how they want to be treated. I feel a lot of guilt when I realize I could have said something that could just impact someone’s self esteem.

Lately over the last 5-6 years, I’ve felt that I’m only looked as a joke. I really have no friends that really want to go out and have fun with me cause I’m not the crazy partner like everyone else is. But when I do get to see people in public or at college, I feel like I’m never taken seriously unless they need my help on something. I have always been made fun of because I make a lot of unintentional things that turn out to be funny to other people. I always try to laugh and act like I’m in the joke of get along with it. But deep inside it hurts and really have no confidence to just say anything. I’ve really been low over the last few months. I’ve really only been at my house over my Christmas break and feeling like i will never be appreciated as a friend or as a relationship in my life.

Does anyone got any advice to help? I’ve went to those chat rooms online for help, but all they do is say obvious things that you should do. But for me seem really hard to do cause I don’t want to have a “pity party”.